School's in session...

So the high school came out to install the software for CJ to finish his high school credits. They also brought the police with them for protection. I was so embarrassed. We live in a "small town" within McHenry and the cop that came with was basically our version of Barney Fife. Nice guy, but small town you know. Whatever. I got over it quickly when I watched CJ sit at the computer for over 2 hours yesterday! Not bad for ADHD. He was reading enthusiastically and taking notes....finished a few modules up. It has got to be a break for him, he was becoming pretty bored. I am thankful he has an interest in completing his high school education. That will be a monumental accomplishment for him. He has been home with us now for near a month and I am happy to report that there has been no behvioral issues to report. We have had a couple days with his anxiety peaking, the day the cop showed up with the school was one, but he handled it pretty well. No need for haldol yet...for him anyway.

I received a call from the public defender this morning. He will coming out to our house next Tuesday, my next "day off" to meet with me and CJ. He, however, will not be bringing the cops along. ;-D We discussed the competency issues and he explained that the better word to use and understand would be "fit". CJ needs to be fit to stand trial for the charges pending. We all know he isn't currently fit, meaning he does not understand what is happening or what can happen as a result of a guilty verdict. The defender said he will likely be ordered to stay at the Elgin state facility to undergo "fitness training". (Yes, Elgin is still functioning apparently although mnay of the structures have been torn down.) If he is unable to made be made fit, then a trial would be held without a jury. "and we can discuss this more when we meet next Tuesday...." So, it seems, that no matter what, CJ is going to a place that cannot help him, once again, and there appears to be nothing I can do about it. If he is ever found fit, then he will be tried and if found guilty, he will go to jail for many years due to the felonies.

That's where we stand right now...up to our necks in bullshit. My nerves are fried, my heart is aching, and I think maybe it's my turn to seek out some anti-anxiety meds. In the meantime, I am still praying and hopefully will have more options after next Tuesday. Today, it's bleak.